I know what you’re thinking; are you guys trying again? No, we aren’t trying just yet but we aren’t preventing either. But remember when I said that PMS symptoms were the same as pregnancy symptoms in my Note to self post last week. Well, you guys; I’m going flipping nuts. (Period Talk is coming right now, you have been warned.)
Last month I could have sworn I was pregnant, I had every pregnancy symptom in the book but my period came and I chalked it up to my mind playing tricks on me. They say pregnancy symptoms mimic PMS so maybe I looked way too into it.
This past month again I got pregnancy symptoms and I could have sworn I was pregnant. I had horrible PMS, which I have not had since I was on Birth Control. I spotted for 2 days and then got a really light period. Which is SO not like me. I’m on the dot every time to the tee. Of course, this whole time I was taking HPT after HPT after HPT. All were negative except one which was a faint positive. (which screwed with me even more). Even after my period I was still convinced that something was going on. I kind of knew that whatever it was; a baby wasn’t going to come out of this. I guess I was kind of hoping but knew in the back of my mind that it wasn’t. My fear was more so an ectopic pregnancy or something that might hurt my fertility if I ignored it. (Kind of weird, I know). So, I called my Dr sounding like a lunatic and went in to take a blood test. And what do you know. BFN which means I REALLY am flipping crazy! How can my mind be playing these tricks on me.
So if I’m not pregnant then why am I feeling all these bad feelings; cramps, lower back pain, headaches, nausea, tired even my sense of smell is heightened. It makes no sense. So, of course I’m looking at all angles right now to try and figure out why I’m feeling this way. I mean seriously is my mind that powerful to make all these symptoms appear or is something going on that my body is trying to tell me about. Could it be another ovarian cyst that’s causing these symptoms or is it just my diet.
I know food plays a huge part on how your feeling day to day. So I’m first going to start with taking a little bit better care of myself and see if these so called “symptoms” disappear. I haven’t been exercising that much and with us traveling a lot; my diet hasn’t been all that great either. Maybe I’m not getting enough water which is causing my headaches, maybe I’m not getting enough exercise which is causing me to be tired. Or maybe I do have something going on inside. I’m determined to figure this out. In the meantime I’m off to juice some veggies.
And just for the record I swear I’m really not Crazy!